I have come to the opinion that the Fox network blew it big time when they made a mess of the tv series FIREFLY.

 Just wanted to say that, you blew it guys. Get a life.

We got 70cm of snow in total. Wheeeee it was fun while itlasted but it's melting fast.

My SCA master comes to this side of the pond this week and I get to see him on Sunday... oh boy oh boy oh boy.

In the mean time I got those loose ends, too many things on the go, monday morning blahs... I should go wash the floors or something... doing some blank scrolls for those just in case emergancies... thinking about plots and dialogue and what ifs...

apart from that... not terribly much to report. It snowed...

Until then, be excellent to each other!

So here is where I have some problems with the world. We go to war with other countries to ensure they have democracy yet when a country exersises this right and chooses their government if it is one the rest of the world does not apporve of we take issue with this and condemn the choice these people have made.

While I make no stance on the choice made at all , I do not live inthis country and I know little about the ins and outs of all the politics but to my understanding deomcray is the right to choose. These folks chose. Now we as the rest of the world have to work with their choice instead of condemning it. How hypocritical we are. We want everyone to choose their leaders but only the ones we approve of.

Well, world, sometimes you have to work along side of and with people you neither like nor agree with, but you know... it is finding a common ground and getting along that makes the difference.

It is ridiculous that we cannot stand by our own words. democracy is democracy... a people's right to choose, they did so deal with it.

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On a totally different note... we have snow. LOTS of it. I mean we have 30 cm of snow... This is not usual for here so chaos ensues. No one here knows how to drive in snow... We were out shovelling at 7:30 ( coolnesss) and we will be shovelling again later one. Most of the people in Marcus's office didn't make it in. Wild. It is supposed to snow until Saturday night. HOLY COW batflakes... this is not Ticino normal weather at all. It is a LOT of snow and a bit daunting!

So tonight will be mulled wine and fire burning in the fireplace :)

Until then, be excellent to each other!

Firefly

Serenity

buy the dvds!

 the play list for The Dark Stripped Bare:

Avalon - Roxy Music
Come Undone - Duran Duran
Cuts You UP- Peter Murphy
Fallen - Delerium
Feed You With A Kiss - Zeromancer
Hey Little Girl  - Icehouse
Is Your Love Strong Enough - Bryan Ferry
It's No Good - Depeche Mode
Kein Zurück - Wolfsheim
Mery Street - Peter Gabriel
Minor Earth Major Sky - A-Ha
Nocturnals -Peter Gabriel
Getting Away with Murder - Papa Roach
Cry Little Sister - Lost Boys Soundtrack
Slave to Love - Bryan Ferry
Strange Kind of Love - Peter Murphy
The Man's too Strong - Dire Straights

 itis of course subject to change

Why do I HAVE to specify a catagory? Why??????

so annoyed at the tblog changes right now. I loath that other people can switch stuff around and I cannot change it back to the layout I had before. Pisses me off.

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Marcus has gone to Prague. Company kick off meeting. I wanted to gowth but wives are not considered part of the deal. It's okay I guess, in the end I get some quiet time to write and stuff and do house work and all that blah blah blah.

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Three of my friends are going through hell. Their parents or a parent is dead and or dying. It seems to strange and surreal to be an observer, helpless on the sidelines while they go through something I have already been through in my life.  The desperate sadness and pain of losing a parent no matter how you feel about them is dreadful. I remember telling one of the people at my father's memorial service after he had made some comment on how terrible it was and how sorry he was, that this was life.

I told him everyone has to go through this at some point in time and now was just our turn. It is sad and we will mourn but as long as we remember the person who died in our minds and hearts they don't really die.

The young man looked at me with astonishment and commented on my ability to cope with this terrible thing. But in the end it was true what I had told him, when it happens it happens and it will happen eventually to everyone because all things die, even stars. It is how we deal with it that marks us and mourning is a right of passage somehow.

I feel for my three friends because loss is an ache of a sudden emptiness nothing can fill. It lessens in time but it doesn't ever leave you alone. It catches you at unexpected moments and you cry all over again because that pain you thought was long gone has resurfaced and sometimes without ever knowing why.

We go through life like children. We hope for the best and are shocked by the bad things. Yet without these painful, bad times we woudl not kknow what good is. We would not know that we need to treasure every waking moment. That each second we breathe in and out is precious. Time is an elusive thing and it is a precious gift that one can never reclaim once it is gone.

These are lessons learned.

Since thedeath of my own father I have been acutley aware that every moment counts for something. Even if you sit and think and just think it counts for something. There is no wasted time, there are no wrong turns and bad moves, there are only lessons learned and a road well travelled.

I regret nothing.

I have never backed away from anything in my life.

I face my sorrow and let it wash through me like wind because only then, once I have turned into it do I understand that it is not to be feared , just accepted and only then can I move on.

I knew these things as I wept in the dark where no one else could see. that dreaful empty ache that seemed to fill me up and leave a void all at the same time. You just have to allow it to hapen, accept that it is there and then move onward.

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that being said.... small changes... make me cross.

weird isn't it.

Until then, be excellent to each other...

well not sure about these changes yet but there you go, the more things change the more things change. I dislike the fact that my links now don't open in a new page....I dislike that the archives are now on top and don't work.

 I don't like that I have to open a new page to add posts and add links etc... *sigh* in short I don't much like change bah.t

today is get stuff done day, writing and so on. next chapter of DOTE is half done, bugger to write this one. Laudry etc... it is a monday after all which means mass clean up from the weekend.

Tomorrow I go see the skin doc about moles on my back and stuff, nothing serious just routine check ups. ( I hope) and get my scrolls that I am, working on done, or at least further along than they are now. one nicethisng is that my gesso worked. for once. so now it is back to the grind so to speak...

until then be excellent to each other.