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| stuff |
| 06.30.04 (5:05 pm) [edit] |
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so... one door on the tent done, we'll seee how it holds and looks. hmm biggest pain in the arse ever. One keyhole vest made without a pattern I might add, so I drafted one this morning. now I have a very cool tribal / Ouled Nail costume for the event no one will see my face for coins. I hope there will be photos. we even found the perfectest shoes. tomorrow we will get new tires for the car, clean up a bit then slowly make our way to Nibelungen because we are in no hurry and no stress. This will I hope be a migrain, stress free event one of fun and laughter and madness. I haven't done a mid eastern/ algerian//morroccan style person before so it could be really fun. Now I will spend the evening doing some finishing of scrolls and maybe have a NICE bath consider redoing the henna as it's a LEEEETle on the orange side ( happens if you let the grey grow) and maybe watch some mindless tv. apart from that it's really nice to have a few days OFF WORK and relax even if it's getting stuff done.we actually slept in till 9am this morning. all in all it was a great day. until then be excellent to each other. |
| :D |
| 06.27.04 (8:44 pm) [edit] |
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:shock: I am bored. soooooooooooooooooooo busy that I am bored. must be time to do that lounge in the bath thing. until then, be excellent to each other. |
| ahhhhhhhhhh Midnight |
| 06.26.04 (11:06 pm) [edit] |
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2 scrolls down 5 or 4 to go.... phew. tent to sew... boxes to pack... Monday at work ( last day before 4 days off) waiting for honey to get off the *&^%$!#@ computer so we can go to bed!!! and the big debate of the day is to gild or not to gild. was a good day!!! nighty night all utbeteo :twisted: |
| tee hee hee and he's my fav |
| 06.26.04 (9:09 pm) [edit] |
 Gabriel. You're most like the ArchAngel of Communication, in charge of things like telephones, libraries, internet, and the 411 phone menu. You're organised and are not shy about inflicting that organisation on others. Which ArchAngel are you most like? brought to you by Quizilla the scarey thing is that this is in some weird twisted way, true. :roll: :shock: :shock: :shock: :shock: :shock: :shock: |
| the moral of the story is.... |
| 06.26.04 (4:16 pm) [edit] |
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if You want something done ... do it yourself and that's exactly what WE are gonna do. I love it when a plan comes together. so if things work out there will be tokens after all. meanwhile I am doing that mad scribe thing, big scrolls smallscrolls , scrolls with gold scrolls without gold. blue iron oak ink, purple iron oak ink.....sounds like a DR. Seuss book or something. the sun is coming out yay until then be excellent to each other. |
| it was a dark and stormy day |
| 06.25.04 (6:58 am) [edit] |
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It feels like November. It's howling winds and lashing rain, 15 degrees and wild. UCKKY. okay that was my weather rant. My next rant is a bigger one and has to do with apathy. I will keep this short and sweet. If you want scrolls and tokens to be handed out then someone has to make them. It is UNFAIR for people to expect something when no one wants to do and it is REALLY unfair to expect scribes who are the dobees anyway to make scrolls AND tokens ( and no I am not talking about the crowns here they do not expect scribes to = slaves). But When there is total kingdom apathy on the art of the artisan populace for what ever reason then it's hard to get enthusiastic about awards. It's like the chicken and the cake story, everyone wants the cake but NO ONE wants to help make it. Our glorious shire will help put an end to some of this I hope. Plotting in the works... it is my firm belief that few people can accomplish a lot when they work together and become part of the solution team I am part of the DWST, the drachenwald solution team and so is Aventiure. Apathy sucks. and that's all I have to say about that, well actually it isn't but it's all I am going to say right now. --- I hope this weather clears by thursday next week, we are off to Nibelungen. Camping and all that jazz. We met last night and discussed what we need to bring and how we plan to deal with dis and dat. It was fun. Discovering that our neighbours are activly poaching though is not fun and I am a bit annoyed with them. --- Scrolls and books okay I will I promise get the photos up somehow of Max's knighting scroll and The book of John and Honor. I should add I love it when I get paid bythe king and queen...another little coin to add to my savings... soon I might be able to buy a cow or somethig. mmmmmmmmmm pergament.... start to plan for all the events we want to attend this summer and get ready for university and then our move, there is NO time. this weekend is the great FIX the bloody pavillion weekend. UGH! not that it's broken but I had no design for the doors and I did them wrong so I need to re do them so that the close..... a minor detail. work is still work, i swap stuff what can you say about that? 9 years university and I work in a warehouse...and I enjoy it.... what does that tell you???? --- okay gotta go and do that get ready for work thing.... will try to be a BITTY more diligent about updates. until then be excellent to each other. ps Mum, Kate Mud, I love you! :D |
| the day after |
| 06.21.04 (8:09 pm) [edit] |
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The thing I think that is hardest about bad migraines is the after days, especially when i havetaken the wonder kill all migraine pill. Next few days afterwards I am just not there, nobody home, out to lunch and so on. And the really pooper is my head still hurts not enough to be crippling but enough that I know that bloody headache is still there. the word zombie takes on a whole new meaning. :shock: so that's it folks I am taking my weary body and zombified brain off to bed. until then be excellent to each other. |
| sobfest better known as coronation |
| 06.20.04 (2:27 pm) [edit] |
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Okay some things about this coronation, 1 it was wet, very very wet. 2 it was very full of regalness, laughter tears and much joy. 3 Terafan tried to inadvertantly set the feast hall on fire, while Lord Robert sang and the crowd chanted. 4 I have never laughed so hard in all my life, medieval flamethrowers have taken on a whole new meaning. 5 Albon always makes me cry 6 MAX was knighted and oh boy that was a sob fest.( and the crowd lost it) 7 John and Honor make court and feast FUN 8 who knew Ele had THAT in her... jeeze. 9 Giano welcomed into the Panache ( well deserved) 10 Restormel hospitality so rocks. 11 Blackwood gifts rock even more 12 WHAT are ye dooin in ma swamp????? 13 Will a company leader, yup. 14 Udo very nice period berber tent 15 babies everywhere 16 sleeping in the car is not an exciting adventure it's a pain in the arse but it's dry. 17 next time bring some thing to sit on even if we aren't bringing the tent 18 sitting in the swamp = wet butt 19 scribal teas should not be held 1 hour before court 20 Isengau makes GOOD food. 22 coronation feast should be served not self service. 23 this kingdom needs more scribes and hey guess what I found some or rather they found me 24 thankgod for migrain medication 25 migrains so frigging suck and why do I always get them at important times??? 26 Got Bertrik good. 27 cold showers are the very bane of my SCA existance. 28 how come there were no live musicians?????? 29 Vitus learning the spanish tongue. 30 good to be home again. guess what 9 days till we do it all again. until then be excellent to each other. |
| Nature is unfair |
| 06.17.04 (7:43 am) [edit] |
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So you know there are days when being a chick just sucks and this biological function known as your period is the worst. Yesterday seemed like drifting through a fog or grummbly guts and cramps with the added bonus of a headache that tylenol only nipped the edge off I have no idea what I did yesterday, I worked I came home I worked I had a bath I went to bed and lo and behold another day. I have today off, to work on the art stuff. I bought time out with my over hours, so I could sit here and work. :) cool or what. Not much to tell, still the same old same old stuff going at work, the I am better than you crap because what I swap is more expensive hangs in the air the waybricks don't it's really dumb but I decided to just ignore it fromnow on, not my problem if someone doesn't want to play on the team. I like my job and I like the folk I work with, I am not this guys maid so i am not running around after him to tidy up, now I hear thatthe guys in the warehouse feel the same way, that he's a slob and doesn't care about his work area. okay, well that's actually his problem not mine so the BIG question is why do I make it mine? What tick in me gets mad when he doesn't play ball? Silly so I stopped. I put an SEP field around him and his area and his mess and I walked away, got enough to do anyway with our simple inexpensive stuff. We may not be the expensive part but we sure are big on volume. In the mean time I am doing the usual battle agianst a deadline, albeit self imposed but there you go, I love the drop dead deadline crap, why??Because I am a masochist....(sp) at least that's the only reason I can think of, why else woudl one do this sort of thing? fun? er okay well the trouble is it is fun. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Coronation is this weekend held by our neighbours. It will be interesting to watch the goings on, I am looking forward to the crowning of John and Honr because they are very cool people. It will be a fun reign Ithink not like the last which i found (aside from my own issues with HRB) it was lacklustre and rather dull. I guess when you've done the royal thing 9 times it gets boring after a while. What I least like about the SCA is the political crap and the pety back stabbing-lealousy shit. I mean it's a hobby, you know fun....but nooooooooooooooooooooo there area whole group of peple out there who play for the power and the glory of what? A rattan sword and a pretend throne. GAME, - to play and have fun, and yet there arethose who will deliberately spoinl it for others for what? Why? manipulate and seek power and so on. Bah, stupid. I have set my SCA goals to have fun, to serve the kingdom in which I live and to teach what I can to those who wish to learn it. It's pretty straight forward, do not pass go, do not collect 200 euros and do not try to stir the pot(s) to get what ever glory one thinks one might win by stirring said pots. That being said, this weekend will be wet and cold and probably windy but on the whole fun, the house will be together as a group for the first time ( as a house not a shire) in ages and we need to do that. We have two primus stoves now so when it's forbidden to have campfires this is NO longer an issue. the rest will be wait and see. I will bring a camera though. Could be exciting! will keep you posted.... until then be excellent to each other. |
| cramming |
| 06.14.04 (10:04 pm) [edit] |
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how many miniatures can a person do in one night?????? I am calling it quits 8.5 hours of work at the day job and 7 hours straight on the night job..... can we say pooped boys an dgirls. What's REALLY scarey is I just realised there is ONE week and a few days before Nibelungen ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH H HHHHHH!! YAWN :shock: oh well stupid me always OVER estimates her own ability and Underestimates how much time it REALLY takes. YAWn okay bed CONGRATS SWEDEN 5:0 bulgaria. until then, be excellent to each other. |
| the trouble with.... |
| 06.13.04 (8:31 pm) [edit] |
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What a day, 50% of it sorting out or trying to sort out a scroll not going to be there on time mess. I hate that, I hate the unpreparedness and then the having to sort out the mess afterwards. If you take on a job take it on because you know you can do it, if you have a deadline and you know you can't make it don't take on the *(&^%!!! job. The killer was the sudden out of the blue statement and question of reimbersement for materials. Huh say what and where did this come from? You know if you want to get some money for your scrolls you need to talk to the Signet BEFORE you do the scroll. Now any money that goes towards this scroll will come out of my own pocket and I don't somehow think that's all that fair since I pay for all my own materials and paints and gold leaf and so on. I cannot believe this is happening. What do people think? well I guess the trouble is they don't think. If the materials ( ie vellum) are too expensive don't use it. If you know you can't meet the deadline then don't take on the assignment. *sigh*. But don't say yes then use THE most expensive materials and then complain about it and expect to get money towards it. That's silly and incredibly unfair. this is the very first time I have ever heard of anything like this I am sure it happens but woah dude.... It makes me really sad to hear stuff like this. I don't quite know how to deal with it. This is the second time this week I have breen disapointed by someone about a scroll, the first one was someone opening their big mouth when i especially asked them to keep it quiet, okay so it's a backlog scroll but still, I wanted it to be a surprise and no many many people know from this one source. Sometimes I just don't understand the world much at all. No surprise now, just expectations. good things today are I got all the book calligraphy done and pencilled in the drawings It doesn't take me as long to paint I hope so I should be done by Wednesday, still have another page to finish, two blank AOAs just in case his backlogness decides to get award happy, and a blank book to make. All by thursday. so much for new garb. well at least we managed to wash the garb from Double Wars, jeeeeeze. Thankgod Coronation is a short event, we don't need to bring much. :roll: :roll: :shock: I keep thinking I will get a break after coronation but you know two weeks later is Nibelungen ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! okay I stop panicking now. phew back to work. Until then, be excellent to each other. |
| slacker |
| 06.12.04 (8:57 am) [edit] |
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Yup I know I am a slack-ass when it comes to updating this thing. NO TIME! sheesh. scrolls and thingies to finish for Coronation, a house to tidy ( it's reached crit mass now) I just can't sem to get aroundtoit. Roses to care for, full time job there, and a husband to coddle ( although he does more of that for me, as I am the hysterical one with my "ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHH TOO MUCH TO DO!!!!!!!" There is lots going on here, many plans and stuff for the summer events and winter events already we are planning what to do fo univesity, go stay teach don't teach..... Probably I will teach a class on book binding and we will probably go with Connie ( that will be fun fun fun) and this year Uni is in a castle, a real one. VERY pretty. Our neighbours are still up to their old tricks and having heard some mighty disturbing gossip ( having to do with telling a paid member that he/she is unwelcome to show up at a kingdom event--- big NO NO) I am eternally grateful we struck it out on our own, we do okay for a small group, we may have our problems and we may do some straneg things but ni the end we talk to each other ( takes a bit of time sometimes) and we keep business out of the fun meetings and,still, all active 3 kingdom officers now in this small shire of ours ( yeah nuts nuts nuts) We had a fun meeting last week at the brew pub in Luebeck, I only wished they brewed more than one sort of beer though, I kinda miss the Granite Brewery in Halifax.. they made an awesome stout. We took friday off his week in the hopes to get stuff done and I spent the day either on the phone with friends ( just one of those days) or with Connie who dropped by and was here for the whole afternoon also very fun, we then did the quick and dirty Stadtfest tour it gets worse every year, ate some food then came home. Connie left and I tried to get some work done. I can only work on this book during the real day light or in my room because it's tiny and the calligraphy is tiny ( go blind tiny batarde hand) I did set up the portable scribal desk and that was very cool, to watch some matrix while scribbling but the sun set and the livingroom lights are set for ambiant not day light substitute so I called it quits at 10ish, my hand and my back were kinda thankful. I really understand that monk who wrote in the margins of some manuscript that "writing is excessive drudgery. It crooks your back, it dims your sight, it twists your stomach, and your sides." Okay so I don't feel quite as badly about it but the bit about the back, that's true. This little book will be so nice when it's done but it's soooooooooooooooooooo small. I want to make two for this weekend one is filled with stuff and the other is blank for someone else who has been immensely kind to me. Can she do it????????? Super Scribe I aint, but when the crunch comes I can get things finished on time. I like crunch time. adrenaline and so on. anyway, in real life not much else is happening, the belly dance classes are fun, Afrita is very cool I learned more form her in three classes than in five years of other classes. But she has been doing this for over 25 years or so.amazing. tonight we go out to dinner in an egyptian restaurant and see her dance professionally I can't wait she just lights the stage up like fire. A. I wish you could be here for it! 18 days and 6 months till moving day ( aprox) arghhhhhh okay back to the slavorium and the back crooking scribing! until then, be excellent to each other. |
| schloss burg = palace castle |
| 06.06.04 (5:00 pm) [edit] |
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so..... Solingen. A very long drive, frustrating drive down lots of road works and a customer that phoned every 20 minutes.."where are you??" we eventually had to turn th eprivate handy off it was very annoying. We got to th ehotel in Solingen-ohligs ( why there can't just be one Solingen i don't know but there are several soligens and M24 doesn't seem to understand this, well I don't actually know who writes the directions for Map24 anyway but I am sure they don't live on this planet. Completely off the wall directions almost caused a divorce. Why men don't believe you when yousay "It says here...." I don't know. New household rule, no MAP24 printouts in the car ever ever or the navigator doesn't come with. I guess the next christmas present will be a tom tom navigator system for the n10. gawd. give me a REAL map any day. So we arrived at the hotel same as before nice clean with a little kitchenette thingy, I went shopping bought some wine, some OJ, some snacks some dvds ( used) there is a great video rental place in ohligs and they always have great deals on used dvds. then walked back set up my portable scribal desk which so rocks and started work this was at around 4.... 7 hours later marcus gets back from the server installation which didn't work and then we sat watched a very very very bad movie called bats or rather bat attack ( should have been dubbed BAD attack)( no cable for the note book/dvd player.) and drank a very nice bordeaux ate some rather interesting basil-olive bread stick snacks ( yummy) and then went to bed. Some Saturday. Sunday we got up slow and had a leasurly breakfast then got on the go, while paying I saw a flyer for this knights exhibit at schloss burg. and yes this is called Schloss Burg which when translated means palace castle. Well it's Solingen Burg really and it's astoundingly beautiful a real castle not a palace with everything you would picture of a castle. The exhibit was amazing and we spent a couple of hours wandering about looking at seals and stuff although all the documents were copies ( as in very high quality photo copies but the seals and the coins were real, all the armour was drop dead wow and it was cool, and this palace castle made the lost weekend trip to solingen all worth it. All I can say is all the SCA fighters would need washclothes too wipe the drool, the gambesons were spectacular,,,, swords, halbards and so on..... http://www.schlossburg.de/hauptseite/" title="http://www.schlossburg.de/hauptseite/" target="_blank"http://www.schlossburg.de/hau... it's in german but the pictures are pretty. ... and then we drove home the roads were different and quiet and with a little stop along the way for a not so yummy bratwurst and a fairly nice icecream in Lintel it was smooth sailing home and now we are home to thirsty roses and a messy house. back to work tomorrow. nice to be home though. and now we have Finding Nemo to watch on dvd yippie. until then, be excellent to each other. |
| The sharp city |
| 06.05.04 (7:12 am) [edit] |
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So today we are off to Solingen where Marcus will fix some server thing. I wll go with just because I can, for those of you not in the know Solingen is where many of the great german knives and things of a sharp nature are made. This means I take my scribal kit with , gotta do some work, don't you know. I have a portable scribal desk ( small) and my box full of magical paints rulers papers, pens inks and so on. It is amazing what I can stuff into this box. Try to pick up some of the slack left by Elffin and Signe. The list is long and scarey. But it's great practice and it gives my restless hands and mind something to do. working on the books continues but book making when there is no glue involved is really a treat and doesn't take all that long. So lots on the go. but anyway we'll be back Sunday and we'll see what happens after that. until then, be excellent to each other. |
| early crows |
| 06.02.04 (5:15 am) [edit] |
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You know I remember my dad often being away on some sort of business trip or another. I can't recall how I felt about it then or now but it seems history repeats itself with my husband who is also often away on some sort of business trip or another. Today it's back to Lugano, our future home. He'll be back on friday and this has both pluses and minuses. the pluses are I get more stuff done around the house when he's not about the minus is he's not about. It's very early and I am on my3rd cup of coffee, in a couple of hours I need to get my lazy self to work and back again. Deal with lost modems and stressed call centre agents, among other things. I am looking forward to moving most of the time. For a number of reasons, mostly I am just used to moving and it seems natural to me to do so, often. I wonder what it willbe like living in a more relaxed climate and with people who are known for their own sparky temprement. I like Italy a lot, the way people are there reminds me of how people are at home on the east coast of Canada, open friendly a bit nuts. I truely miss that as much as I miss the Atlantic ocean. One of my big complaints about living in North Germany is the lack of open friendliness. And that's not to say that north Germans are not friendly they are, but you don't see it all that much. They don't smile very much and most people you tend to meet by going shopping or into town or what ever are fairly by east coast and newfoundland standards fairly rude. No one says hi or excuse me or for that part anything. If they want to get past you most people old and young alike tend to just shove by you. On the street people walk into you and stare at you as if it was your fault for being on the street in the first place. The lack of consideration and manners has been my number one pet peeve about living here right from the start. I miss the openess of home, there is a magical kindness about people there and I often wonder if it comes from being a sea folk, or in Newfoundland's case a "have not" folk who are used to making do with hard winters and less money and make up for the lack of material wealth with the wealth of friendliness and kindness. I sometimes feel like my own soul is dying here. I've noticed a wearing away of my Canadianess and a slow but creepingly steady coldness moving in. Maybe in all possible ways this move to a place that has a whole different attitude on life will be a good thing. And before anyone pounces on me, I do love it here. there will be a lot about here I will so miss. I don't hate anything about it but it's a hard place to live for someone not born here and raised in this cool shoulder atmosphere. Marcus's mother says the same thing, she is also not a native North German and she too found living in this part of the country almost unbearably hard. I am hoping that there will be more joy near the italian border. More lebensfreude, so to say. Everything and most everyone up here seems unhappy most of the time and, if our neighbours with the exception of M nextdoor are anything to go by, they seem to be just bloody miserable. Selfish and unkind. We have already had some issues with our neighbours that make you shake your head and wonder why they bother living they are so miserable. I think that is why I will miss my job most of all, people there smile and say hi to you. They smile and are openly friendly. But then many of the people I work with are also not from here either. It's a strange thing. I have a small group of friends here and I will most definately miss them a lot. either way in 7 months I'll find out how it is. Of course we will be moving in winter not the very best of times to move but still. It will mix the pot a bit. until then, be excellent to each other. |
| not doing what one is supposed to be doing in favour for something else |
| 06.01.04 (10:04 pm) [edit] |
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So.... here's the deal. The hard drive won't get done till MAYBE next week because too many other things just get in theway. :( sorry Mud. will try to retype and scan the images in for you Marcus is away this week and unless I bringthe stupid thing to work and let someone else bugger about with it , it will have to wait tillnext week. :( :( :( I'd reinstall it myself but very bad things happen when I try to mess about with hardware. trust me. So today the weather outside was warm and lovely and the weather inside was frosty. brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr cold shoulder front until late in the afternoon when a slight thaw approached. I was talking to marcus's dad about some htings that have been going on in our lives with some friends or ex friends of ours and in the end I tol dhim, to me in the end I don't really care what people think of me. I know when I screw up big time, most people do, their little voice says so. and I usually have the guts to say you know you were rightI was wrong I am sorry when i am wrong. And when I feel I have the right of way I defend myself and my point. And in the end I don't give a toss what people think of me as long as I think I am doing okay and I have a fairly high moral radar for myself. Sounds terribly arrogant and maybe it is but in the end when other people have an issue with something I do or say or how I am and they don't speak to me directly about it then it is their issue not mine. It's not my problem it is theirs. It only becomes my problem when it's brought up to me. and then depending on what it is I will either give way or stay the course. Marcus's dad said it has taken him his whole life to figure this out. I guess I just got tired of always chasingafter everyone i felt I had somehhow managed to upset just to set everything right now matter who was in the wrong or even if there was no wrongs done just personality clashes, which happens and is normal. so if you have an issue with me about me for me from me then speak to me. if not well that's just good then isn't it. Of course I say this but it is so hard for me to do as I say and I have a tendancy to shy away from confrontation and not bring up negative things even when they really bug me or hurt me or what ever. So I also need to learn to be a bit more open about the dark side. people are on the whole very strange. Lots to do and running out of time. I feel the weight of the up coming move, I feel the weight of the amount of crap we own and where the %^&%^&%)_!! to put it? or get rid of it or what ever. How can two people have SO much frigging stuff? and more to the point why????? our hobbies keep us very busy and also require a certain amount of stuff, well it's not as if we own a bobsled or even a race car but we do own a medieval pavlilion and a rope bed, a lot of photo stuff , computer stuff and other insane things that are hard to schlep about. What on earth do we need all this stuff for? I ask myself that all the time and then buy more. I have been programmed. I am a born consumer. It's scarey a real 80's child. more more more. one can never have too much paint or too much garb. and books are always useful. it's really pathetic actually. hmmmmmmmmmm okay on another note the wild roses are growing well likeweeds and the sky is very clear tonight. I managed to mix myself a relatively decent approximation of a bloody ceaser with some sort of V-8 like substance, a large amount of vodka and even larger amount of tobasco and salt and peper, it wasn't ceaser like but it was bloody spicey. I miss bloody ceasers. they don't make them here. :( no one has ever heard of Clamato juice sometimes you just miss things. I know when we move down toLugano we'll miss so much about here. It's always the way. anyway that was today's commentary from the third floor. and yes I know I am an absolute crappy typist. and you know what.... it won't change. until then, be excellent to each other. |
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