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| it's a go |
| 04.27.04 (7:34 am) [edit] |
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I have a show and oh my god it's really big. In all probably between 15-25 pieces depending on what I decide to bring on Wednesday. wow I'm sort of speachless... yeah... will try to keep you posted but time is so damn short right now. Until then be excellent to each other. |
| never rains but it pours |
| 04.25.04 (9:20 am) [edit] |
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So this week seemed to do some strange things. Mostly everyone was bitten by the spring exhaustion bug, come into work tired sit there tired and leave tired. Friday was especially bad. But Thursday also brought some good news. Connie ( not that connie) came by and was all hyper with the the information that she had managed to some how set up a possible show for me. A show... an art show.... in Schwerin. Marcus called the woman on Friday and yesterday I painted as many large canvases as possible. I only have very small works inthe house, usually 8"x10" or for all you metric kids out there A4 or sometimes slightly larger or some times slightly smaller ( square) well you get the picture. This woman wanted BIG pieces because they will be displayed in a showroom for office machinery and furniture. So I spent yesterday painting. The cool thing is that I suddenly realised that these very small paintings are actually my way of sketching out ideas and so at least three of the pieces are really big versions of some of the smaller ones. We will drive with a car full of art to Schwerin tomorrow and see how this goes, but what an oppertunity. When Connie told me I wasn't hyped I was in fact mostly a bit shocked... but now I am super hyped. I owe her a really nice painting as a thankyou. I must admit I am really surprised at the high level of interest I get at work for my art work. It is a strange thing but I feel really very greatly supported by a good many of my co-workers. It is am astonishing feeling to feel this. I am not so used to it of course when I think about it in my life I always tended to keep most of my art stuff fairly secret and quiet. Always felt shy about displaying it. Today I will try to get the rest of the works I am doing done and then hopefully there will be enough for this woman to hang and be happy with. It would be so cool if some people really enjoyed the works and maybe even bought one or two. Either way it looks amazing on my resume. This will be the 3rd "show" I have had here. One at the hairdressers, the paintings in there came out yesterday as marcus "rescued them" for me. Of course T. is still holding a grudge and told Marcus she is soooooooooooo very hurt. Victorian swoon thing....Tja, get over it. How long can a person play the wounded dying swan for? And over what. I mean I could understand it if I actually said something really mean, but I told her she did not have the right to speak for me. And that was actually all, that and wish her a happy easter to which of course she didn't reply.She also told Marcus that she consulted a shaman about Pupsi , remember him the part time cat that walked away, and according to the Shaman he will return in 2 months. when he does she has decide dthat because the other cat Horst is doing SOOOOOOOOOOOO well pupsi will live with marcus next door. uh huh. My personal feeling on all of this is that deep down she just wanted to divorce us all. *shrug*. I don't need that sort of angst and drama daily inmy life. I actually don't miss this person at all and that it was actually a relief that this relationship had an end. In the end I don't really care about the hurt feelinsg the reproachful looks this that and the next thing. I don't have time for that sort of stuff any more and who needs it? What a waste of time, spending your whole life running around being hurt at everything all the time. and that was a really strange thing to realise, I do really miss the cat though, and I hope that Pupsi does come back safe and sound, poor thing. Yesterday we also made a quick run into Luebeck to exchange our new fogmaker. We bought a new one but it was missing a cable so all I had was a fog maker with a male plug and an adapter with a male plug and that didn't work out too well, we needed the middle bit. While there we went to the nice place we had the SCA meeting at not the brew pub that only has ONE kind of beer, the othe rplacem, and ate the same thing I ate the last time I was there... turkey tandoori plus guinness and the same thing happened to me again, gas explosion in my guts so what did we learn? That guiiness doesn't go with everything. I half suspect that it is actually the really delicious garlic sauce I eat with the chicken , what ever it is the results are fast and furious. Anyway I guess I had better get back to work. I can tell you this boys and girls 2 days to get a complete show ready is not much time. There will be photos I will keep you posted. Until then, be excellent to each other. |
| ups and downs |
| 04.21.04 (9:23 pm) [edit] |
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so today should have been a slendid day but it actually bitter sweet. As a 4level old scholar you'd have thought that by now I could get past the arrogance and submission which seem to combine sometimes into a mighty whallop of Gawd in heaven why me? Today the sun shone fully and with all power. The walk to work was littered with wonderful little piles of spaermuell... that's dead furniture and junk day. I love looking at what people chuck out. I got to work and the day was good. Lunch was good and everything poodled along just peachy. But I can tell you something niggled, my dad would have called it blackdog on my back. I got my fulltime contract today and I should be really happy but it was a bit flat. Then later on having to deal with a bitchy cranky call centre agent didn't help, hey I *know* that's a rough job,.... but you know I am trying to help you don't bite my head off. sheeeeeeeeeeeesh. and then anotehr sort of whack across the fingers and I sit at my desk and wonder...okay this is not a good feeling why do Itake all of this so personally? No my problem that THomas is bitchy. Probably the customer told him off....do not take any of this crap personally. IT IS NOT PERSONAL it's just a job. now I have a real job, real $$$ sort of and real day to day stress. The trick is not to let fear and arrogance step in and rule the day. The best thing about today was hanging with Jayson, who plays elastic band shooting just fine. the question of teh day is why are some days regardless of the good hings that happen just somehow blah? Why can't I get over myself some times and just let stuff go. --- on the better side belly dance class was good, we did more floor work and that's one of my favourite things. It was fun and relaxing what is most cool is Sylvia. A. you would have had fun in his class we did the lying hanging fig 8 thing ...I still feel like a beached whale but hey that's my problem isn't it. Marcus comes home tonight, yay. tomorrow things start to get back to normal.... This is such a strange time, everything seems to be swirling towards something. I feel it. I sense it. seems strange to be moving away when things start to come together. Or is it because things are about to change that they come together? strange days either way. in the end... today was a good day and on the walk home I realised this. The shone in my face and the leaves are starting show their faces to the world, I have rescued two huge ( my guess is queen) bumblebees at work and dance class was fun. the day was worth the wait! until then, be excellent to each other. |
| house of stone and light |
| 04.20.04 (5:52 pm) [edit] |
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Marcus is in Rome fixing some ting serverish, he flew out last evening and comes back tomorrow around the same time. yay I might try to writ emore but after a long day at work I am pooped. until then, be excellent to each other. |
| If crows could talk |
| 04.18.04 (3:40 pm) [edit] |
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So here we are sunday already and it's still sunny out ( well it was night but the sun showed up again as opposed to rain or something, there is a flea market this morning here and I am hyped I love flea markets. Not like we need ANY more junk in the house nooooooooooooooooo, hell just the opposite we are supposed to be downsizing out crap we are going to be moving soon ( 8 months + a few days.....) but flea markets are all about the hunt for the ultimate bargain. Life is busy when your day is filled, it's very good actually having spent the last two years out of work at home being a not so typical hausfrau... mostly a bored mouse.... it is a welcome change that I get to work and play and be busy and active for the next wee while. anyway that's the plan for the day! until then Be excellent to each other. |
| beautiful sunrises |
| 04.16.04 (7:49 am) [edit] |
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Yesterday we were up at six am. No real reason just because. Spring has finally hit us with her touch and it was somewhere between 18-21 degrees celcius. LOVERLY. It's funny how people react you know. You comment on how GLORIOUS the weather is and the first thing most people said was.... "yeah and we are stuck indoors." I always answered yeah isn't that great I get paid for being in doors , doing a great job , being with cool people and I still get to look outside and enjoy the weather anyway. no wonder everyone thinks I am a little odd. But why complain? I am so grateful to have my job and be working, especially when I know that someone fought extra hard for me to be there full time. I love what I do, and I really like the people I work with. It's a cool computer firm why woudl I mourn the sunny days m, I see the sun anyway and when all else fails I can open the loading bay door and bask for a few moments. I spent last summer doing nothing and after a while it gets boring. Nice to have th etime off but it was also lonely and dull as well so I welcome work. :D I don't really mind what the weather does most of the time, the without end grey that lasts weeks that sometimes happens here is a bit depressing , but in the end what of it. It's weather. My bellydance class on Wednesday was quite magical, so I think that we will stick with the wednesday group and hang with them, the group fits better together and we did some very cool things, among which was a healing circle and jeeze it's been years since I was involved in one of those. Talk about raising power. When I came home Marcus was like.."What tell me, how was your class what did you do??" he never asks me that sort of way... " you're shining." he said " so something happened." It was a walk under streetlamps and turn them off kind of power. VERY cool. So Today is FRIDAY, yay and work will be fun as it usually is. We swap stuff how hard can it be? then the weekend which will go by too fast although we have next to nothing planned. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh aside from the ^&%^&%&^%!!! ulcer that's sitting waaaaaaaaaay back behind my wisdom tooth and being very painful, all is well. Asperine is my best friend right now as well as salt. so to all you lovers of shiney things, makers of quilts, buyers of shoes, firefighters and wood carvers... I say a good morning and lots of love all around until then, be excellent to each other. |
| Yawn |
| 04.13.04 (11:02 pm) [edit] |
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spring sleepiness hits..... the weather is warming up, we had a nice easter, work is helping to pass the time away with fun and I finished a couple of scrolls just for the hell of it. I love working with gold, nothing prettier in the world than real gold, gold leaf on paper all shiney and burnished... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm yummy. okay I am tired. until then, be excellent to each other. |
| Blazen this!!! |
| 04.10.04 (9:01 am) [edit] |
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It feels like Sunday today and it's just saturday. It was beautiful yesterday and today it is rainy and a bit grey. April weather. I spent the night last night pouring through my heraldry books. Someone wants to create a "device" in the shire and it is my job to make that happen for them. This is such a good job. I love heraldry, it's so logical and precise in many ways and in others a bit off the wall and strange. You can tell a whole story with a few pictures. It is this great language. ( I have my dearest friend Andrew / Miklos to thank for this.) Marcus will probably set up some srt of beginner's guide on the aventiure site so that beginners and new members can get a handle on what this heraldic stuff is all about. A lot of it comes down to design, the simpler the better. Our shire device, for example was truley simple, and it was fairly easy to design. You have to think a bit differently though. Heraldic devices are sort of like Medieval versions of businesscards only you need to be able to see them from a LONG way off so the simpler the design the better. Our shire device was and is simple based on the history of the shire, there are six stars in a circle each for one of the founding members, the "shield" is divided into two fields ( left and right) sinister and dexter if you want o be proper, the two colours are black and white, ( sable and argent.) and since the division line is from top to bottom , it is a per pale division. The stars that circle around are counterchanged in colour depending on where they are, that is to say if the star is on the black field the colour of the star is silver and vice versa. To speak the device in heraldic language it is [i]Per pale sable and argent, a laurel wreath between within six mullets of six points in annulo counterchanged. [/i] the laurel wreath was a must have and tells that we are a part of the SCA and shire device not a personal device. The division of colour represents the division and split that caused us to start our own group and that is also represented in the changing of the star colours. The six stars ( Mullets - not to be confused with the old hairstyle) represent the six founders, they each have six points to symbolise the new members that will come into the shire and cause it to grow, the stars in in a circle because everything is cyclical and it also looks pretty. In heraldic devices the trick is precision. Your artwwork such as it is needs to conform to certain standards. Animals look funny and stand in strange ways these all have meanings by the way. You cannot put a metal on a metal or a colour on a colour, ( a light on a light or a dark on a dark) the metals are silver (White) and Gold ( yellow). the colours ( standard ) are black, green, blue, red, brown, purple...etc.... It's pretty cool. and I really enjoy it. Right now I am working on the latest heraldry victem tee hee hee, he has a nice design but it needs some fixing. I will send him a set of options and he can think about what he really wants to say with his device and then we start from there. Once he settles on a design I can draw it out and then blazen it then I need to go through the SCA armorials to check for conflicts, you must have two points of difference between your device and everyone else's. So far every device I have submitted as herald has passed. It would be cool if the record stayed that way! Two of my favourite SCA things are scribal work and heraldry and they tie in together since a scribe shoullknow about heraldry and be able to read the blazen to put the device on a scroll. It's fairly studious stuff and I guess that's why I love it so much. some heraldry sites in anyone is interested... http://digiserve.com/heraldry/pimbley.htm" title="http://digiserve.com/heraldry/pimbley.htm" target="_blank"http://digiserve.com/heraldry... (pimbley heraldic dictionary) http://www.heraldica.org/" title="http://www.heraldica.org/" target="_blank"http://www.heraldica.org/ ( Heraldica.org) http://www.sca.org/heraldry/" title="http://www.sca.org/heraldry/" target="_blank"http://www.sca.org/heraldry/ (SCA heraldry jump off site) http://www2.kumc.edu/itc/staff/rknight/her aldry.htm" title="http://www2.kumc.edu/itc/staff/rknight/her aldry.htm" target="_blank"http://www2.kumc.edu/itc/staf... (More heraldry) http://www.heraldicclipart.com/" title="http://www.heraldicclipart.com/" target="_blank"http://www.heraldicclipart.co... ( the best heraldic clip art site) have fun some of these sites lead you on to thers and it's really easy to get lost in this stuff.... meanwhile I have to go get another cup of coffee and get back the puzzle of the latest device! until then, be excellent to each other. |
| oh oh |
| 04.09.04 (11:29 am) [edit] |
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4 day weekend oh boy oh boy oh boy house work, finish some scrolls, tidy tidy tidy. sounds like fun doesn't it! nice sunny day, yay! until then, be excellent to each other. |
| just testing |
| 04.06.04 (11:13 pm) [edit] |
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www.innergeek.us/geek.html just in case you ever wanted to know your level of geekdom ps...being a geek includes SCA activities until then, be excellent to each other. |
| manic mondays |
| 04.05.04 (7:12 pm) [edit] |
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how time can slide by so fast is truly beyond me. All I did today was scan around 400 packets into th eups machine and stick the lable the ups printer spits on the package... that is it. And it took the whole day barring lunch time. That's all I did. wow. amazing. Today was a great day. It zipped by we were all in great moods even tired jayson. I apologised to him for my ranty bitchy behaviour last week and he gave me this funny look he sometimes does and said..."what weird ranty bitchy behaviour." Sometimes I feel worse than I am appear behaviour wise I guess. but I told him I was sorry anyway, I felt I had treated him badly or at the very least was bitchy which was probably so, since I was pmsy got my period had a migrain and a cold all together.,..... most people would not be happy campers or as Marcus likes to say happy crampers. I tend to feel very dark when that combo hits. I really like Jayson, he is so easy going and he is kind. we had fun today at work as K and I put him through hell... back to the 80's music almost all afternoon till he would plead.."Just one song....bitte......" He's like 20 and we are all on the upper edge of 30 something.... it's just funny. we relented and it was a nice mix of music the whole day really. Fun, we chatted we shared stories and on the whole everyone seemed way more relaxed than they have been in ages. I suppose part of that is we are almost caught up with swap stuff and today oh glory be we shipped out 422 packages. That's awesome so ther will be some happy people out there with their new modems and mp3 players etc... It's very cold here right now, 8 degrees or so. But cool sunsets have been going on and it has been anything but boring. I will miss my work when we move. I love it there. it is one of the best jobs I ever had. Marcus is making curry chicken tonight so I shoudl go help out... Until then, be excellent to each other. |
| Rainy Sundays |
| 04.04.04 (9:46 am) [edit] |
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On other notes, it is a wet rainy weekend, formula 1 goes ahead at 11am. There is a flea market in Bargteheide and life is still and peaceful right at this point in time. I have finished my second cup of amazing italian coffee and will enjoy my day before tomorrow when I go to work. yay work. until then, be excellent to each other. |
| THREE DAYS OF HELL |
| 04.03.04 (9:10 am) [edit] |
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Just so you don't think I have been skimping out on writing this diary thing ... Tuesday to yesterday were days from hell. It started with the 31st...while sitting at work the scratchy you are getting sick sore throat and then the shivers started... to add to the my biological clock decided it was period time and that's was just the teaser ..... I spent hte night on the couch heating pad, tylenol + codine lots of water and sore throat thingies. The headache was grumbling around in the background. Next day I went to work ,being the 1st of April ,was my unofficial / official 1st day of full time contract work. I felt like some dogs dinner warmed up but you know swapping modems ain't brain surgery so you get through it. The trouble was the headache that had been grumbling in the background since the 31st decided it too wanted in on the action and by 4pm it was a banging away like a mad man on the side of a metal barn door with a sledgehammer. Okay just so we get the picture, sore throat, sneezes, cramps from hell, nausia, and pounding soon to be migrain from hell headache. God let me go home.... I lay on the couch this time turned into a bed the whole evening and then went to bed. I managed to sleep until when at 3am the vicious I want to kill you with pain mirgraine turned into ( get me a gun so I can put myself out of my misery) migraine. It is really sucky when you wake up because the right side of your head and face feels like it wants to tear itself away from the rest of you. Fortunately I live in the time of goooooood drugs and for emergancies I have something called Maxalt. This tiny little dissolve on the tongue pill saves my bacon every time. Even the thought of that made me sick but it dissolves fast, no swallowing of pills involved... and with the weird sort of minty mediciny taste in my mouth I went back to bed and at 8 am the next morning when I awoke voila, no more F@#%#@^#%$&ing headache. Now the there are some rather strange side effects of maxalt and for me one of them is I feel the next day like a zombie. It's like okay I am alive I know I am alive and I know I am here but my brain is fried totally and so I will just move fairly slowly today.....( did I meantion I am still while all this crap is going on fighting the cold???) And this day being the 2nd of April was the day that finally I had the chat with the bosses to officially say that as of the 1st of April I am working full time on a real contract not this mini job thing. By 5pm I was feeling sort of normal and we went to Luebeck to play badminton I felt like I was moving through water, slow and clumbsy. When one of our friends who is a bit insecure said, "Oh I guess we should stop I see you are not having any fun playing with me" I had to tell her the same thing I am telling you. Don't take my lack of response personally, it's just in the last three days my brain and my body and some outside troops called a cold have decided to test my endurance and quite frankly all I want to do is sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. We all went and ate afterwards so that was good because for the first time in three days I was actually hungry. The headache though is still rumbling around in the back of my neck, I mostly think it has to do with hormones and the really incredibly hard mattrass we have to get rid of soon. I have degenerative disk disease ( which isn't actually a disease) in my cervical spine ( that's c6-c7) and so my neck often hurts, you know I move it the wrong way and you hear the bones crunch. That pinches nerves.,... that starts pressure and that starts the headaches. So what did I learn in the last three days? I can function even when I feel like death warmed up in a bad microwave. I got a full time contract. ( OH MY GAWD YAY) That my husband who coddles me and does everything right when I get really just shoot me sick is the best husband in the world. That when I get sick, I just want my MUM. that bad things always seem to happen in threes. That when I am sick I have NO tolerance for hip hop. ( Sorry Jayson, I'll make up to you next week.) That it doesn't matter how stunningly beautiful the weather is outside when you have a migraine you'd love it to be pitch black night ALL THE TIME. and lastly how unbelievably grateful I am to be more or less healthy again. Thankyou the researchers who came up with the anti migraine stuff. Thankyou the makers of Tempo ( best paper tissues in the world), and for Riccola ( swiss don't you know) throat pastells. so this is why I haven't been around much ...... it's not a personal thing, I just felt like crap. until then, be excellent to each other. |
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